Thursday, September 16, 2010

Lost... again

I had a brief conversation with one of my mentors the other day.  We had not talked for a while and I was just king of giving a 2-minute update on the last 6 months.  One of the things I mentioned that I think I should return to life insurance but I am still feeling a little anxiety about it.  And my mentor's response was, "Is it anxiety or lack of peace?"

That was a great question.  Unfortunately, I have not been able to figure out the answer.  I thought I had settled it a few weeks ago, and yet I am dealing with the same questions from the summer.  Basically, what should I be doing?

I feel kind of aimless.  I want to try so many things, yet there are only a few feasible ones because of limitations.  I will be honest.  The main limitation is financial -- I have bills to pay.  And therein lies one of my frustrations.  Life is meant to be lived and experienced!  What am I doing with my life?  What does God want me to do?  How am I making any impact?  Am I living the life that pleases Him, and brings honour and glory to Him?  

Life is meant to be lived... and I feel like I am stuck.

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