I had a brief chat with an old friend tonight. He has always been a big brother to me and so full of wisdom (and other things!). In the course of our chat, he said, "Trust is vital." Indeed it is. No relationship can function without it. No friendship can continue and grow without it.
So here I am, trusting in the infallible and unchangeable characteristics of God, yet not fully trusting Him. I believe that nothing is impossible for Him. I know in my head and heart that Jesus came to give us new hearts. With new hearts, we become new creations and our lives transform as a result. However, I am having difficulty in accepting that it could happen at some future time in one particular case.
Am I wrestling with the roots of bitterness, perhaps hoping that God will withhold His transforming power from this individual and have this person punished on my behalf?
Or perhaps I am just being willfully disobedient to God because I do not want to trust Him on this one?
Truth be told, I am afraid to trust God on this one.
So here I am, trusting in the infallible and unchangeable characteristics of God, yet not fully trusting Him. I believe that nothing is impossible for Him. I know in my head and heart that Jesus came to give us new hearts. With new hearts, we become new creations and our lives transform as a result. However, I am having difficulty in accepting that it could happen at some future time in one particular case.
Am I wrestling with the roots of bitterness, perhaps hoping that God will withhold His transforming power from this individual and have this person punished on my behalf?
Or perhaps I am just being willfully disobedient to God because I do not want to trust Him on this one?
Truth be told, I am afraid to trust God on this one.
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