Life is a journey. As with any journey, there are periods of adventure and discovery, often in times of sunshine and laughter. Did you also know there are periods of discovery in times of storms? When you are assailed from every direction with nothing to take shelter under?
I am going through a period of deep struggle. The last time I remember feeling this low was while in graduate school. Back then, things were so dark and so bleak that there was no hint of deliverance from the storm. No, I was not going to take my life! Things were just so bad that I was a hair's breadth from abandoning my faith. I had almost decided that I had never received salvation at all (since I do not believe that salvation can be lost), and that my decade-old Christian walk was a complete farce up to that point. I stood at that crossroads and had a decision to make. Out of that 2-year storm came the resolute and absolute belief that my God is real, my salvation is real, and that I will never, ever consider abandoning my faith again.
This storm is different, but still a period of deep struggle. I am not in any danger of abandoning my faith or my faith in God. I can trust that He is good, that He works in all things, and that He works in all things.
I do not know when this storm will be over, but I know it will be one day. It could be 9 months, it could be 3 years... Only God knows. I do not know what the outcome will be. Only God knows. I do not know what (else) will happen during this storm. Only God knows. I do not know what discovery I will make in this storm. Only God knows.
What I do know is God is my Anchor, my Rock. He is my beacon of light in the darkest storm. He will not abandon me, nor will I He. I know that this storm too will pass.
I am going through a period of deep struggle. The last time I remember feeling this low was while in graduate school. Back then, things were so dark and so bleak that there was no hint of deliverance from the storm. No, I was not going to take my life! Things were just so bad that I was a hair's breadth from abandoning my faith. I had almost decided that I had never received salvation at all (since I do not believe that salvation can be lost), and that my decade-old Christian walk was a complete farce up to that point. I stood at that crossroads and had a decision to make. Out of that 2-year storm came the resolute and absolute belief that my God is real, my salvation is real, and that I will never, ever consider abandoning my faith again.
This storm is different, but still a period of deep struggle. I am not in any danger of abandoning my faith or my faith in God. I can trust that He is good, that He works in all things, and that He works in all things.
I do not know when this storm will be over, but I know it will be one day. It could be 9 months, it could be 3 years... Only God knows. I do not know what the outcome will be. Only God knows. I do not know what (else) will happen during this storm. Only God knows. I do not know what discovery I will make in this storm. Only God knows.
What I do know is God is my Anchor, my Rock. He is my beacon of light in the darkest storm. He will not abandon me, nor will I He. I know that this storm too will pass.
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